Monday December 7, 2009 Happy?
I am still on tract with my Wii 30 day challenge. I did miss my workout on Saturday. But I was so active my feet hurt by the end of the day. I missed weighing myself on Friday because the anxiety of gaining weight has returned.
I know there have been times that I have overeaten but I also know that my idea of overeating now and what it was before is not the same.
In my mind, I daydream of my workout. I look slim and fit, with the determination of a athlete, sweating and breathing properly. I look like the fitness teacher of a class. After the work out I feel energetic and ready to start the day.
In reality I am and not slim or fit my determination is to just make it to the end of the workout and when it’s over I am sweating, barely breathing and drinking water like I have been in the desert all day. I sit down exhausted and wonder if I will be able to make it through the day. After a hot shower I am downing 2 extra strength pain relievers just to make it through the day. Wondering how did I ever get this out of shape?
I have always said that I do not feel any different from when I graduated but something definitely has changed. Looking back on my fitness level when I first entered high school exercise was a way of life. I loved working out and really enjoying running and jumping. I should have been on the track team but my doctor would not clear me for that because of the problems that I had with my knees. He said the training would have crippled me. Regardless I ran every where and when my knees would hurt I walked every where. It did not matter that I would walk for 2 hours I enjoyed it and I had my walkman so I was fine.
Now walking to the store that is down the street makes me rethink if I really need that item from the store or not. Which do I prefer? The fitness of my high school days or me right now?
I love me right now but want to be fit! I want to enjoy the workout and not fear a walk down the street.
I will endure the pain a little more and work with the determination of someone who wants to be fit and healthy. This will make me happy.
1 comment December 7, 2009
flowerschi
Tuesday December 1, 2009
I was not sure how to start my workout last night so I just did the Wii fit walk run for 20 minutes. 20 minutes is a long time when you are out of shape. I tried to concentrate on the screen and imagine that I was actually in the little animated city running the marathon.
I almost tripped on the little dog that was running in front of me. I started yelling at it to get out of the way. I quicken my pace and ran past it which was a silly thing to do because it just ran in front of me again when I slowed my pace. Finally I just dealt with the little mutt.
It’s a good thing that I thought ahead and had a glass of water close by because I need a refill but it was close to the end of the run so I just stuck it out.
I was very happy when I was done. 2 reasons, I did not excuse my way out of doing the exercise and 2 I completed the time I set for myself. One step toward my goal!
This morning I had Cheerios for breakfast. This is my favorite breakfast! It is now 11:16 and my snack was 8 ginger snaps (one of my vices) and a red delicious apple. And I will be lunching at 12:30 with Susan. Probably I will eat a salad or soup and sandwich. Tonight’s dinner is baked chicken legs with salad. Another step toward my goal.
Keep those words of encouragement coming.
1 comment December 1, 2009
flowerschi
Monday November 30, 2009
I have made several resolutions during the year all of them regarding getting rid of this extra weight that I am carrying around with me.
I saw a commercial this weekend where and man had a cast iron old claw foot bathtub in the middle of the sidewalk. He started asking people to help him carry it. Several people attempted but to help but the results were the same it was just too heavy to carry. He then explain that the tub weight 200 lbs and he recently lost 200 lbs and has kept it off.
So then I thought about the amount of weight that I am carrying a round. It’s not 200 lbs but there are timeS when it feel like I am carrying an extra person.
Starting today I will be doing an aggressive exercise program. Right now I am in my little office planning what I am going to do when I get home.
Goal to get rid of 8 lbs, which is about the weight of a newborn. Since I will never give birth there is no reason to keep the weight on me.
How will I achieve this goal;
Write down everything that I eat.
Track calories and fat grams
Make sure to have 5 serving of fresh fruit or vegetables each day.
Exercise 4 times a week
This will be completed by 12/30/2009
My reward for achieving this.
A road trip to see my cousin in Elkhart, IN January 1, 2010.
words of encouragement always appreciated.
2 comments November 30, 2009
flowerschi
Tags: exercise, weight management
Weigh to Wellness.
I have been sick for a couple of days. I thought my head was going to explode but I survived it.
I am participating in a Weight Management program offered by my Health Insurance. So far so good.
Wednesday mornings @10:00 is my weigh day (self-imposed)
I have to fill out a food and activity tracker every day. I journal my food intake.
Calories 1800 Fat Grams 60 per day. 10 minutes of activity for 5 days first 2 weeks.
October 20 calories 1560 fat grams 18 no activity to track.
October 21, calories 1769 fat grams 37.5 no activity to track.
October 22, calories 1127 fat grams 50 no activity to track.
I think the calories are low because I still am having sinus problems and I really cannot smell food that well and I feel like something is in my throat but that is acid reflux bothering me again.
I must start with the activity soon.
This weekend will be a challenge going to watch the Steelers fight the vikings and I am sure food will be involved.
Keep moving!
2 comments October 23, 2009
flowerschi
Tags: exercise, food, weight management
non exercise day
Today it was important to eat right.
Breakfast was 1 slice of quiche
1 brownie
hot tea plain — the brownie was the sugar
lunch 2 slices of chees pizza
water to drink
snack 3 peppermint hard candy
I am proud of no pop at this point
dinner
subway spicy italian hoage 1/2
potato chips bbq 1 oz
1 16 oz coke
Total calories calulated by fitday 1,754
Total grams of fat 81.2
Total carbs 214.3
Total prot 47.7
not to bad for a first day. Will be taking pain meds tonight for the exercises in the morning.
Tomorrow day one WII Active.
Add comment October 10, 2009
flowerschi
Tags: food
Numbers only nothing more.
From now on I only have this blog. This blog will just have posting of numbers only. Sometime a receipe or two.
The numbers will be the exercises that i did that day example:
walking, moderate speed 40 minutes
situps 45
wii active day 1 or what ever day.
I guess I will include my food journal as well. I am better at writing a journal with entries every day but for whatever reason I don’t do well with blogs. I said I was going to do this before but now its done.
I will start this tomorrow because I just decided this today.
The numbers for today are :
current weight 291. current goal 286 in 2 weeks.
Add comment October 9, 2009
flowerschi
www.fitday.com
I recently started using Fitday to journal everything I was eating. This has help me to be more aware of what I am eating. The same was true of weight watchers I did better keeping the journal than when I did not.
Once i see what I am eating regularly it helps me to make better choices .
I am down 1.6 lbs and have a goal of 2. lbs per week. So far so good.
Add comment September 24, 2009
flowerschi
Dinner time was family time.
I misplaced my Journal. This will be found shortly. My hubby was looking at it so I am sure he put it away somewhere.
Growing up Dinnertime was family time, my mother made sure of that. When she was home full time she made all our meals.
Breakfast was some cereal (hot in winter, cold in summer) with sausage, ham or bacon. Lunch was sandwiches; usually apple butter and peanut butter. I did not like peanut butter and jelly. And dinner was always grand.
When she called us for dinner we came in, cleaned up, changed our clothes for dinner. Nothing fancy, our clothes had to be clean not full of dirt from playing outside. After dinner we could put our play clothes back on and go back and play.
At dinner each of us had to turn to tell about our day and how we were feeling. Mom and dad, at that time knew what was going on with us.
In time she went to work parttime and then full time. We were often left to find breakfast and lunch for ourselves. Since I was the oldest I was to make these meals. Sometime I would, most time I would not. The youngest two would just go to dad and he would give them something.
Dinner I loved to cook. I would use receipes from different magazines in the hopes that I could make it grand like my mother.
We would sit at the dinner table and have conversation just as if Mom had cooked the food. Of course if my sisters did not like what I made they complained.
Eventually we grew up, got jobs and Dinnertime remained family time. Whoever was home had to fix dinner. One time my mother decided that she would cook the night before. She fried chicken and had it in the refrigeration with a note on it that said. ” Chicken, don’t eat Joe.” She meant for my dad not to eat the chicken. When she came home and saw the dinner was not on the table she looked in the kitchen for the chicken and saw the note on the empty plate.
She looked at my dad who smile and said ” I showed that chicken. I ate it.” then he laughed. She was so mad. We went to Mcdonald for dinner without dad.
The next day dad cooked dinner and it was grand. We sat and laughed, talked as usual.
Since my hubby works at night I usually eat dinner alone. No conversation no laughter just me and the TV. Sometimes I would wait for him to get up for work and eat dinner with him at that time. But that really made my reflux flare up. So I eat dinner alone except on Monday Night. He is off from work and we can have dinner and family time then.
I usually do my best to make it grand and we do laugh and talk and enjoy our family time.
Add comment August 14, 2009
flowerschi
Tags: my memories of food
Weight loss Journery to restore the flower energy
I FINALLY HAVE A NEW COMPOSITION BOOK AND I WILL USE TO RECORD MY WEIGHT LOSS JOURNEY.
It has a beautifully butterfly on the cover so I guess this will be me changing into a butterfly.
Weight loss has been a goal of mine and usually I put a lot of pressure on myself and when I see some minor improvement I sabotage myself by going back to bad habits. I have been flip flopping on my food choices so I think it my weight loss journey recorded in the book will enable me to see bad choices and make the necessary changes.
Monday August, 10, 2009
7:30 am Cheerios with fresh blueberries and 2% milk. I used one cup of milk which means I can refill the bowl because there is milk left in the bowl so I guess I will have to change that to ½ cup of milk. Need better portion control here.
10:00 am Sweet Mesquite Barbecue Reduced fat Pringles. 6 of them is a serving but I know there was more than that left in the can. French vanilla Cappuccino coffee. Next time I will just have the coffee.
1:00 pm 1 slice cheese pizza, small fruit salad, small broccoli and cauliflower salad (drown in creamy Italian dressing) it was already prepared by the caf so I could not change this however if ever I make it at home much less dressing. Also need to eat broccoli much more to prevent the gas that I can get with fresh veggies.
Work for the rest of the day was pretty uneventful. The clinic was finish much too early of course had I know this I could have come in early and then left early. GREIF!
At 4:00 pm I got another coffee. After 2 hours I was able to leave to go home. SIGH!
My hubby, whom I was not speaking, was late in picking me up from work and then to make up for last night and being late today took me to eat at Red Lobster! I love Red Lobster but that should be an apology.
Grilled Shrimp Jambalaya! So good! so not diet! so not caring!
I will not snack tonight because this is enough for the whole night.
I did drink 5 bottles of water so I am well hydrated This was not a successful eating day tomorrow will be better.
I will endeavor to make the posting tomorrow more entertaining.
Keep moving!
Add comment August 11, 2009
flowerschi
Tags: Menu's, weight management, work
FAILURE
I woke up in the morning and felt sick. I think my acid reflux came back full force. It felt like I was having a heart attack. But I think I know the difference.
There is the feeling of thickness in my throat. It does not go away regardless of how much water I drink. The tightness and slight burning in the chest and my stomach feels full. So i did not exercise at all. I tried to eat breakfast but I felt like I was gong to vomit so by the time I left for work food was not on my mind.
I got to work to find that I had left my purse at home. I had also left my lunch at home which was sitting by my purse. GREAT! I had no lunch and I had no money.
By lunchtime I was hungry and all other symptoms were gone. Thanks for friends. WC brought lunch meat and with the purchase of some buns and fries we shared her meat and both had lunch.
Now its 5:30 and I feel the same way I did this morning. Which proof that i was right. So when I get home I will be taking the little purple pill. Hopefully tomorrow morning will be the better day.
Add comment August 6, 2009
flowerschi
Tags: exercise, weight management
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