286.9 reversal of fortune.

286.9  this is what flashed on the screen after stepping on the scale here at work.   The clothes I have on probably weigh about 3 maybe 4 lbs so that means that my weight minus these items should be 282.9!

Just what I was aiming for more weight!  

I had to stop doing the Taebo Boot Camp that just caused more pain to my knee and I had to stop taking the medicine because it just cause a major flare up my acid reflux.  I may have a bleeding ulcer because of it.  It never really completely stopped the pain in the knee anyway.

I really have to watch what I eat and I must stop eating at least 4 to 5 hours before going to bed otherwise I will have pain in my stomach and my knee all night.

This is truly a reversal of fortune for me.  All I really wanted to do is improve my health and therefore have a better outlook on my lifespan.  Now I think dying early might be better.  At least I will not be in pain.

Breakfast  Oatmeal with a tablespoon of brown sugar and some raisins and a 20 oz cup to Island Mango and Peach flavored White tea, with 3 tablespoons of sugar.

I have no idea what lunch will be.  Probably 2 hardboiled eggs and water.

Taking suggestions!

For the last week and a half I have barely looked at the calories or taken the time to plan them out for my Calories Cycling. 

 My hubby has been giving me grief.

 My father in law has been in and out of the hospital but thankfully is home now which gives me some relief. 

My favorite cousin is in from out of town and I cannot get over to her house to see her like I want to. 

Both knees hurt the right more than the left, I have to see an Sports medicine doctor. 

 I think my headache meds are becoming ineffective but it more likely my sinus are causing me headaches. 

 My father’s friend Died which is depressing because my father has been dead for 10 years or more.

 Most of my parents friends that I know and love have died.  There are like 3 or 4 still around from the days when they used to go out.

 I never get together with my friends and that has to change!  Before we start dying.

 Yes it Red Whine and A big hunk of Blue Cheese!

 This is my cycle right now.  Plan out all the meals for the week and shop for the food. Especially the snacks of carrots stick, celery,  and other bite size fruit and veggies.

 Sunday everything goes according to Plan.  Breakfast  Hot coffee with Skim milk and Splenda ( I had to get use to the way this tasted)  Fresh fruit.   Some times toast.

 Lunch.  Big salad with as many raw veggies that I like low calorie salad dressing

Dinner Baked Salamon with Dill butter, Steamed broccoli Diet Mt Dew.  Dessert  Baked Apple with a splenda and cinnamon.

 If I go hungry between meals,  choice of baby carrots , celery sticks, red or yellow peppers cut into strips.  Need a sweet treat… Oranges, apple, cherry, Grapes.  Tired of plain water. Seltzer Flavored water zero calories.

 Monday.  Same breakfast.

 Lunch  Fruit salad that I would make at home and bring to work.   1 veggie snack pack  1 sweet treat.

 Dinner Baked Chicken breast with rice  some kind of veggie.

 Tuesday Same breakfast

 I would attempt to make a lunch and get instantly angry because all the snack packs and sweet treats are gone!   Hubby ate them all.   I start my fussing about selfish people only thinking of themselves and noone else and he standing there with a stupid expression on his face which screams “ WHAT I DO!”   I can think straight to figure out what I want to eat so I eat nothing.   Until I am starving then I eat everything that is not nailed down.

 Then I regroup by going to the store and starting all over again.

Any suggestions! 

Oh I have gotten rid of 2 lbs since my last weigh day.

All signed up and ready to walk the walk.

Finally everyone I talked to about the race for the cure walk run on Sunday has signed up.  Well Todd will sign up day of he never answered my question if he was driving the shuttle  on Sunday or if he was driving from Dicks Sporting goods store. 

If he drives for the sporting goods store then he pick people up at  assigned location takes them to the race and bring them back.  He will be able to walk the course with us.  If he drives the shuttle that is a back and forth driving before, during and after the event.  He still has yet to let me know.  So Betty will be there and Wanda, Domonique, Sandy, Debra, Jalyssa!  Drena, Tina and Danita did not confirm but then when Danita went to the hospital 2 weeks ago with chest pains I did not ask again and she has not brought it up so we will get her in shape for next year.  I am super excited and I will be taking pictures and walking the walk!

Yes Betty I will give Calorie cycling a try.  I did a little look up and Calorie cycling provides the same amount of calories per week, but tricks your body by constantly changing daily calories.   This helps to prevent or break plateaus. So the calorie cycling or shifting  may help to keep lean muscle mass yet encourage the loss of body fat!    I am game to give this a try.  I always do well with the count of calories and giving myself some extra calories on the days that I work out will help me not feel starved!  I will start this tomorrow, yes tomorrow as in Tuesday not waiting for monday.   Thanks for the info Betty see you Sunday!

Week 2 Day 1 Sunday…Migraines, Rain, Moving.

First of all I did lose 6 lbs this week and was quickly reminded

by the wii that it was too much too fast.   I have not been

keeping track of calories and truly i have just plan forgotten to eat more than just one a day.  So I will write it down!  My aim is for 1 to 2 lb this week.   

second I have been dealing with  a Migraine since Friday.  It is truly a helpless feeling when you feel  the room moving and you are sitting still.  Not good.  The medicine i guess my body ad adapted to so following dr direction i have to up the number of times i take the topiramax.  This it was hard to function this weekend and this was the weekend my sister moved into her first home.

She was so excited and she has every right to be and I should have been right beside her just as excited for her but I was in pain and I wanted to sleep.   Hopefully tomorrow wil be a better day and I will be productive again. 

6 lbs down is good and this week I am working towards 2 lbs down.   Cheer me on.

It’s been a while…

It’s been a while since I have posted here. 

I feel terrible because It’s been a while that I have exercised.  I could blame it on my doctor who told me to stop exercising until I came back to see him in April.  But he did not tell me to eat pints of Ice cream, or to eat a box of vanilla wafers or to eat after midnight when I should be sleeping.

So I am getting it together once again.  Tomorrow at 5:45 I will be up at 6:00 I will be exercising  mostly stretches to get my flexibility back. At the end of the day   Goal for this week.  Work out everyday and post after each work out and restart my food diary.

And stick to it.

New Idea!

Friday I had a simple breakfast.  Toast with jelly and coffee.

Lunch a salad. Not one with cheese and fries and meat.  As simple salad of green leafy greens, tomatoes, cheese and 1 hard boiled egg.  The dressing was a light dressing.

Dinner was Applebees!

Today breakfast was simple.  Hot tea, 1 slice of bread toasted with no sugar strawberry jam.

Lunch 1 can of coke, salad with light dressing and an orange.

Dinner was Denny’s

Okay the dinners must change but my plan is to have a simple breakfast and lunch.  Dinner will not always be at a resturant but they will be sensible dinners at home.

Tomorrow before we leave the house i will cook my dinner in the slow cooker and it will be done when we get home.   This way the excuse that it will take to long to make dinner will be eliminated and  no more going out.   Well not every night anyway.

Keep moving!

December 28, 2009

Goal not achieved! 

This should be depressing me to death. It is not!  The reason it is not is because I kept with it, the exercises, until last week.   This is an amazing achievement at best.  Usually I give up long before now.

After the first week of exercising my knee gave completely out on me.  I woke up and could not walk at all.  Fortunately it was a saturday so there was no need to call off from work.  However if it was a work day I would have had no choice but to call off. 

Sunday would I could walk without crawling like a toddler so I venture out to the store and bought some Icy hot and an ace bandage.  This is not a cure I know but the earliest appointment I could get with my PCP is January 12th.  So I took the appointment and continue to treat with the Icy Hot.

Daily I would attempt exercises but when walking is the challenge then I can assure you squats and the like are just not possible.  So I would do all the exercises I could that did not involved the knee to be full engaged in the attempt.

I did manage to lose 5 lbs which is better than nothing lost,  I did not achieve my goal so no road trip for me. 

My cousin was in town this week for the holidays so I got to sit and talk with her for hours.   

I am going to continue my exercises but not on the WII .  I will just try different things everyday until I do achieve my goal. 

I will find some flexibility exercises to do for the rest of this week.  Anybody have any website suggestions.  Thanks for your help

A new Mantra

Keeping on track has been a challenge for me lately.  I have no problem with making good choices with food.  I did forget to do my weigh in on Monday so I will have to do that tonight and I will also update my tickers tonight.  My stupid computer was giving me grief last night.  My hubby solution is to defrag the hard drive, when that did not work he set up his laptop and said use this instead.  How does this solve my problem? 

Any who,

When exercising, I have a mantra that I am saying out loud or inside my head ” I got to move it, move it.”  I loved this so much that it has help me to stay focus on my exercise.  But it does not tell me why I have to move it move it .

So now I have a new Mantra. ” To have a healthy child I have to be a healthy mother so I’ve got to move it, move it.”  Yes this is much longer but it give me a direction so I no longer say ” Why am I putting myself through this?” 

Hey hubby love my chubby body and I know how to dress myself well so what is the point of this.  I really want to have a child and I fear every day that I have waited to long in my life to accomplish this so I must give my self a better chance at conceiving  my little girl by getting rid of the weight.  

This is the most aggressive I can be in achieving this goal.   I don’t have the resources or the insurance coverage that will allow me to  do more.  So I am going to concentrate on being as healthy as I possibly can be and helping hubby to see how important it is for him to do the same.

Doubt it

Remember when I told my husband that we would try for children at this age of 46 going on 47.  I told him I doubt it will work but lets give it a try. 

Key to this process is making sure my cycles return to a somewhat normal 28 day period.  Doubt it this will never happen either.

December 9th, I had a D&C and at  the post op appointment which was on December 31 I was told to look for a cycle in 14 days.   January 14 came and went no sign of a cycle.  I gave it a few more weeks but once again I doubt it will start. 

41 days later February 10.  Click this for the whole story that I just am not about to  repeat.

Nothing wrong with the ovary in time the pain will go away I will not doubt this, I really want the pain to go away.    In the meantime we must get a cycle going because he is worried endometritis which is (in my age group) a sure sign of premenopause. 

This makes me angry because when I saw this doctor back in November he assured me that I was not starting menopause and that I should be fine trying to conceive but I should have stuck to my original thought when he said it.  I doubt it.

I should have just done the Ablation I would not be going thought this mess right now.